Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Getting Excited

So, Hubby and I were surprised last month when my period didn't show up. We were being careful, but somehow by the end of the month I was lying down on the couch suffering from morning sickness.

Now, don't get me wrong, it is not a problem that I am pregnant. In fact, we had discussed this timing previously, knowing that if I got pregnant in December or January, our kids would be about 2 years apart. Not bad timing for us. Then we discovered that Hubby forgot to sign me up for his insurance, which he has to do at the begining of each school year. Now, he immediately signed me up, but it wouldn't start until January, so December was out. So, because of that and because I am just plain scared of having more than one child running around, I wanted to put off the conception until this summer. Well, that obviously didn't happen.

Am I excited to be pregnant? Let's just say that I am working on it. Like I mentioned, I had mentally prepared myself for getting pregnant several months in the future. Also, I'm afraid that other women that I know will think that we are irresponsible. Because we live in such a liberal area, I get the impression that people that have kids only two years apart (or even just have kids) are looked down upon. Somehow, and I don't know how this happened, women are seen as not being true to themselves if they have children. I certainly don't agree with this, but I still worry about what others think of me.

And the biggest reason I'm still working on being excited? Well, it is rather simple. Very shortly after I found out that I was pregnant, the nausea set in. I really didn't have any time to prepare myself before I was sick. So, once the sickness goes away, I'll really be able to get excited. :)